Finding My Path

Posted October 20, 2014 by Hazellie in Tarot / 1 Comment

im back again

It’s been a really long time since I last posted. I keep meaning to, and then I keep putting it off because then I felt I had so much to catch up on and wanted more time to explain everything that’s happened.

The longer I put off posting, the more I didn’t know what to say, and it’s finally come to a point that I feel there’s no way I can pick up where I left off, so I won’t even try. I’m just going to start from where I am, and do my best to catch you up eventually.

I guess the most “notable” things I’ve been doing recently are tarot and numerology readings, and teaching vocal lessons. I think I might have mentioned these in July or August, and they’re the biggest reasons I haven’t posted much. I’ve been really busy with both these things.

I started a website for my tarot and numerology readings as well, and there had been some crisis at the music school where I was teaching the vocal lessons. The crisis shouldn’t have affected me too much, except that my husband is a full-time music teacher at the music school and it affected him in a major way, so of course, it affected me through him.

The last couple of months, and especially September, we spent dealing with it, and long story short, we are no longer with said music school. We are now free agents, for the moment, and all our students are much happier that way.

I, of course, had been doing my tarot and numerology readings in addition to dealing with that, and I must say, I love what I do!

I love that I’m helping people with the tarot’s spiritual guidance and the science of numerology, I love all the feedback I’m getting, and I love my tarot decks, but more about that on my other website…

Mostly, I love that I’m making a difference. Not just with tarot and numerology, but with teaching my vocal students.

There’s a whole long story here, which I will write about soon, but right now I’d like to talk a little bit about the goals I made in the beginning of the year. I haven’t been actively working on those goals, and tbh, I’ve kind of forgotten some of them! But I did say at the beginning of the year that I will keep working and tweaking them as I wasn’t really sure what I was trying to achieve anyway.


The fact is, when I made those goals, I didn’t have a clear objective in mind, those goals were mostly to keep me busy and improve myself in general because I didn’t have specific goals and some general improvement is better than none. Obviously, I don’t regret those goals but I’d known from the beginning that I needed clearer goals, and so I kept working on improving them and letting go of what didn’t work for me.

Somewhere along the way, in the beginning of the second half of the year, I got some more clarity. I’ll be honest, I’m still not completely clear about everything, it’s not like the clouds suddenly parted for me and I can see all… It’s more that I finally know where I want to go and what I want to do, but I’m still not sure of the exact details. It’s like, I know I want to travel to Europe and experience new things, but I don’t yet know which parts of Europe and how long I’ll be there, where am I staying, what do I want to see, etc.


Still, it’s a start.

Anyway, having this clarity and being busy with teaching vocal lessons and doing my tarot and numerology readings, I barely had time to think about the goals I’d set in the beginning of this year. And that’s okay with me. I don’t and I won’t feel like I failed. I’m okay with letting go of things that don’t work for me anymore. Of course now I’ll have to update my blog to reflect that. 🙂

Some of my goals are going well though, without me consciously planning that in the last couple of months. I think I might be doing okay with the goal for reading non-fiction books…

Okay, quick review:

  1. Read 24 non-fiction books about topics I want to learn more about; music, spiritual, herbs/plants/health, writing, etc. I haven’t counted or anything, but I have been reading lots of books including non-fiction books, so I feel I can still hit the goal and possibly exceed it.
  2. Complete the 5000 Question Survey in 50 weeks (100 questions a week). I’m honestly not interested in doing this anymore. I think it’s fun and if I had time, I’d love to do it for fun, but things have been getting so busy for me and I have so many more things I’d love to do that finishing this survey is very low on my priority list.
  3. Watch 43 TED talks. I love TED talks and 43 aren’t very many, but I think the thing keeping me from reaching this goal was having to blog about every single video I watched. Okay, I didn’t actually have to blog about them, but I did anyway and that slowed me down. I could still achieve this goal if I only just watched the videos without blogging about them, but I’ve discovered podcasts(!) and have been listening to the talks instead, so technically I’m still achieving this goal, but I’m not actually watching the videos…
  4. Write 2 blog posts a week, not including memes and the 5000 Question Survey. Though if my other goals are going well, I’ll probably post about them and cover this goal easily. I want to keep my blog active, but I don’t want to make it a chore. I want to do it because I have things to share. 🙂
  5. Walk 10,000 steps a day every day. I wore a pedometer every day from January 1st, 2014,  until August 23rd, 2014 (except I forgot some days), until the pedometer “broke”. It’s not broke, but it’s not working anymore, so I haven’t been able to calculate my steps. I keep meaning to fix it or buy a new one, but haven’t gotten around to it. I still want to do this because this is for health purposes and I know I need to be more active.
  6. Practice vocal exercises every day. The fact that I’m teaching vocal lessons now keeps me active with this one, so I’m glad!
  7. Practice yoga at least 15 minutes a day, every day. I’ve been slacking off on this, but definitely want to keep doing this for health purposes.
  8. Craft 20 sewing/crochet/knit projects. Another goal that’s not a huge priority right now. I’m definitely still crafting, just not keeping track of it, and I’ve started dabbling in rainbow looms too.

So yeah, that’s where I stand right now on the goals I made in the beginning of the year. However, I have new goals now, which relates more to work and career and future goals and plans. I’m still working on the clarity and the details, but I’m getting there! One step at a time gets you where you need to go.

I’m good for now. 🙂

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